Essay 8: Second Draft For Grading

Marion Philippe

English 8

Mr. Salsich

11-18-09

Lonely Alone:

An Essay About Feeling Unwanted

TS: When we feel unwanted, we usually think of it as “the most terrible poverty” (Mother Teresa), which then makes us angry or mad. CM: When we feel unwanted, we feel as if nothing can get us back up; on the other hand, it makes us stronger and we get to learn about ourselves. CM: We learn about our courage, our strengths and our weaknesses. CS: All in out, feeling unwanted can happen anytime either in the chapters of our lives or in the chapters of a book.

TS: Feeling unwanted can kill a life and a soul, but in To Kill a Mockingbird feeling unwanted brings the book alive. SD: Dill escaped his glamorous foster life to come back to see Jem and Scout because he felt as if his foster parents “didn’t want [him] with ‘em.” CM: At first Dill’s story was worthless to Scout until he pointed out some valuable meanings. CM: Scout “[…] found [herself] wondering what life would be if Jem were different,” meaning that if Jem wouldn’t pick on her or help her than she would feel unwanted. SD: Scout, who knows that Dill is not the only one unwanted, realizes that a cryptic person right down the street feels unwanted (adj. clause). CM: It all started when Boo Radley supposedly stabbed his parents with scissors which made people turn him down and leave him alone in his minuscule basement. CM: This led him to seclusion from the outside world and unlike Dill “[…] he doesn’t have anywhere to run off to […]”. SD: In the early chapters of the book, Mrs. Dubose asked Jem to read to her not for her drug addiction but to have the chance to meet someone before her death. CM: Her addiction became crucial because in the book people saw her as another human who wasted her life. CM: This made her feel as if she was invisible and unwanted: however, this brought her closer to Jem. CS: Everybody wants to feel wanted, but it is not the case everywhere.

To Kill a Mockingbird has different themes throughout its chapters and feeling unwanted is a theme in a few chapters; however, feeling unwanted will be in every chapter of my life even if I do not appreciate it. SD: For example, one day when I was eight my mom went off on a business trip and I forgot about it. CM: At first, all the tears and the screaming were the only two emotions I had left in me. CM: After a while I realized that she was coming back and the feeling of being unwanted was soon going to be over and it would be replayed as a nightmare in my mind. SD: Another example would be the time when I was on the beach with my family, and all I could see was the ocean and my family whose laughs made it feel as if more people were around (adj. clause). CM: Even though we all knew each other, it felt as if we were sinking and waiting for some new voices to pull us out. CM: Like in To Kill a Mockingbird, we had nowhere to run off to except into our biggest fear which was feeling unwanted. SD: However, during the mortifying moments of feeling unwanted, I got to discover a part of myself. CM: I figured out that all that courage I knew I had was just an imagination of what I would like to see; on the other hand, I found that this feeling is just another "fear [in] a darkroom where negatives develops," (Usman B. Asif). CM: Every detail that I later learned helped me overcome the raging rapids of this feeling. CS: There is no way to overcome the feeling of being unwanted; however, we can learn from our previous experiences and use this advantage to get over this hill easier.

TS: Feeling unwanted can teach us about ourselves or it can break a life. CM: Every one will encounter this feeling, and if some people don’t, they will always fear about this feeling because they have no idea what to do. CM: Nobody can describe this feeling no matter what. CS: Some will feel as if life just threw them a curve ball, but some will ready to fight; however, it is not up to us to decide when feeling unwanted happens; it is up to our life.